“Red’s Shrewdness” by Lauren Camp

“Silence is so accurate.”—Mark Rothko
 
That winter when winter was thick as a knot, Rothko sat
            sluggish in long-johns and warm black
            socks, eyes plagued to surface
and every line caught in his wrist as a force
            to reign the harsh range of orange and Russian
            gold, to make whole
rectangles with a red slit sworn to a center
            or smashed against edges. The imageless
            goal of the paintings was to expand
darkness which is also a heaven. That incessant
            morning was cold. The skid
            of the brush between minutes. Consider the fatigue
to have too much, and all of it
            bleeding together. The blocks of black
            and muckraked blue, each hue nearly a possession
to tender the heart
            which I need when I hear my father’s old voice
            on the phone. How he says he is getting things off his mind
when his mind is a void he has
            to peer through. He tells me he is glad
            to be liberated of the money
he saved all his life, and sorry he peed in my sister’s slick red
            convertible that opens like a box
            to sunlight. His thoughts dose again and he’s enthralled
she didn’t get upset, that the slack of his bladder
            didn’t leave pigment. Red goes on
            in my cavernous eyes.

Image Credit: “Beta-Amyloid Plaques and Tau in the Brain — 38686503251” (27 November 2017) from the National Institute on Aging, National Institutes of Health via the NIH Image Gallery on Flickr.